Broomsticks And Owls

by **HuffleDuck** » Friday 11 July 2003 6:52:47am

Sometimes, I think I do have some mental problem and to be truthful i'm not really the happy going type like I'm in here. I think I'm lying to myself here. I have the feeling that i hated 99% population of this world. I hated people before I even know them for some reasons, but after i talked to them and they all nice then i'll like them. That's how I am, I have no idea why. It's like I can't control of what I'm feeling. I never have short temper or easy to be p***d at, but I can get annoyed really easily. I don't like the life I'm living right now, probably b/c of my parents are the reason that holding me back from I rather living in Africa and starve to death than going to school here(US, I'm not African-American by the way) and going to the same thing everyday for 12 years of education. :-?

Sighs, The Circle of Life

Anybody having mental problem in real life? Feel free to let it all out.
I take it after Lizzy since she's so out and open :razz:

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by **Broccoli** » Friday 11 July 2003 2:51:43pm

I have to admit that sometimes I also have the feeling that I am lying to myself by appearing to be so glad and talkative online while in real life I am not that communicative person and prefer keeping silent to speaking. And, like you, I can say that my first impression of the people I meet is usually negative and gets better once I know them close.

But don't be upset! Remember: There are no normal people. There are people who are crazy and people who are as crazy as you are.

by **Mint** » Friday 11 July 2003 9:24:21pm

Huffleduck, you are JUST like my sister!!!!!

She is 17 and has the SAME problem!!! She HATES her school, and gets annoyed so fast and hates people too.

We moved like 2years ago, and she really liked her other school and now she hates this one, and has very little friends from it.

I thought she was the only one with such problem, but may be its not that unique.

I dont know how old u r Huffleduck, but may be its an effect High Shool has on people?... Just a thought .... (I really really hope it is cause I want my sister to start making more friends! and this would mean it would get better in college....)

Huffleduck, hope you feel better.

by **han lin** » Friday 11 July 2003 11:02:46pm

i have mostly the total opposite problem but i can relate. i get too attatched to people too quickly. if someone smiles at me for long enough i take it for said that we are friends and it always surprises me when we're not...

ok its a wierd problem . and not much like yours. i should have maybe kept quiet.

you say you like people the more you talk to them. so unless you show total hostility to them maybie tryingto talk to the people you feel repulsed by... ok this is osunding bad, i may come back to this later and try to make more sense.

by **Gryffindor Student** » Saturday 12 July 2003 4:41:08am

Broccoli wrote:I have to admit that sometimes I also have the feeling that I am lying to myself by appearing to be so glad and talkative online while in real life I am not that communicative person and prefer keeping silent to speaking. And, like you, I can say that my first impression of the people I meet is usually negative and gets better once I know them close.

But don't be upset! Remember: There are no normal people. There are people who are crazy and people who are as crazy as you are.

I agree with her. That is the same way with me. I sometimes hate...HATE, noises. Like little unessesary noises. If I'm trying to concentrate, and someone i hate coughts (and for some wierd reason it donesnt make me mad if the person who makes the sound is someone I like its only someone i hate) it tweaks me soooooooo BAD! I go crazy! I hate this but I cant seem to fix it. I also have attention deficite disorder, or at least a small case of it...its not bad or anything. LOL I can concentrait its just I can only stay interested if it interests me. O.o I am strange, sometimes I feel like a mental case

IM GONNA GO CRAZY ONE DAY! :lol:

by **HuffleDuck** » Saturday 12 July 2003 7:13:23am

Mint I'm 17 too.

Yeah thanks everyone

!! I have thought about what brocolli have said. I'm thinking that I might actually have some happy part in me and I might didn't know and thought i was lying to myself.

Mint maybe you're right. Probably it's high school. I'm kinda freaked out about going to college soon. And I have done nothing i myself would have liked. Ever since starting in 7th grade i was having problem, but didn't know until and 8th. In 7th grade everything comes to me so easily. I went to school only twice a week and still passed with straight A's, but then in 8th grade taking hard classes and realised I get depressed very quickly, I skipped school a lot. only went to school once a week.

So i guess one of my problems is I'm afraid to take a hard way and always looking for easy way out.

by **Violet** » Saturday 12 July 2003 2:30:06pm

I can't say that i have the same problem as you huffleduck, i'm probably more like Han Lin, not that i see at as a problem, but i get close to people fairly easily and end up getting hurt.
i am sorry to hear that you are feeling like this tho huffleduck, and i have to agree with what has been said, i think that it has a lot to do with the fact that you are still in high school. I do know how you feel with the whole grades thing tho, when i took my GCSE's (exams u take at 16 in England for anyone who doesn't know) i found it all very easy passing with 4 A's and 4 B's with very little revision done.
For my A Levels however (exams u take at 17&18) the course became much more difficult, and if something became too challenging it was so very tempting just not to turn up to the lesson!
I think that you should try and be yourself, find out what makes you happy and well if people dont like you for who you are then that is their problem and not yours. dont try and be something you're not, just be happy

take care

by **molli** » Saturday 12 July 2003 9:22:13pm

oh sweetie i relate a lot to what you wrote. *hugs you* i was having such problems socially and physically that i dropped out of highschool.

which is something i regret, but at the time it was the only way i could cope with everything! anyway, i went through a lot of depression and various other problems, and i've recently just gotten my life back in order (yay!!!) just remember that you will get where you want to be in life eventually, hun! it's just really rough right now.

if you ever want to vent or anything feel free to pm me or im me at hellomarzipan (AIM). *hugs you again*

by **Hermione Weasley** » Sunday 13 July 2003 1:22:32am

hey huffleduck!I know what your going through see i moved away from my old home and i am in a new place i don't like it as much and I am much moodier and have a shorter temper but it will get better some days will be better than others but you will survive i promise!

by **AccioNiffler** » Thursday 17 July 2003 5:11:56pm

HuffleDuck, what you are feeling is so normal, you have nothing to feel bad about. When I was in 6th grade (I'm a senior now) I moved from VT to MI, thats a big move, like 500miles, lol, and I hated everyone and everything, I was totally depressed

. Then out of all my friends that I had finally made by 8th grade, only like 2 of them went to the same highschool as me, which made me even more surley about life. On top of that, my sophmore year I moved to another highschool, and REALLY hated everything :eek:

! After I moved that last time I found out I have bipolar disorder, and I thought that this was my reason for hating everything. So I went on my meds and thought soon I was going to be all happy-go-lucky, but I wasnt :eek:

! I still hated people and school and a lot of things about life. That's when I realized that it was normal. Highschool is an evil creature :evil:

that makes you angry and bitter :lol:

But no need to worry, college is different and things will get better. All my friends in college used to be like us haters, hehe, but now they aren't like that at all! So see, you have something to look forward to! So cheer up :grin:

! And if you need to talk or anything, just PM me, email me, IM me, you know, whatever

by **Mint** » Thursday 17 July 2003 7:10:52pm

bipolar disorder - thats what my sister said that she may have.

OMG so this is reeealy common! Yeah college was soo different from HighSchool! Much better if you ask me.

by **AccioNiffler** » Thursday 17 July 2003 7:37:35pm

yea, bipolar is pretty common, and so is hating school and such, lol. i hate it though when you think that you are the only person who feels that a certain way though, its like the worst feeling ever. so its always good to know that other people are feeling as screwed up as you are! :lol:

so hopefully all the, what did i call them earlier? haters? hopefully they all feel a little better to know that they are the only ones feeling like that.

by **han lin** » Friday 18 July 2003 1:35:40pm

bipolar disorder is really common at least two of my friends have it. Its the mixture of feelings sometimes you feel stupidly elated, noting can bring you down and the next mment you hate everything. nothng makes you happy.

i don't know if thats how you feel but its what they do.

by **AccioNiffler** » Friday 18 July 2003 3:35:28pm

yeah, see, lots of people have problems. with me, i'm on meds now, so its not a big deal anymore, but if used to periods of like hating the world and being depressed and being dangerously hyper and such.

But this topic's not about bipolar, its about HuffleDuck

So HuffleDuck, are you feeling better? I hope so, but even if you're not, look at all these people that know how you feel :grin:

I'm sure any of us can help if you need it

by **bludy mery** » Wednesday 6 August 2003 10:22:46pm

I am sorry for dryin' you all up but somone from Florida wrote this beautiful thing (for school I think) something kind'a nice... I dont know if its conected but- don't blame me!!!!! :oops:

What I want to change about myself

A dead leaf among you all

In my eyes, I see the world as a big garden in which flowers and trees grow. In my

garden, every person becomes a flower. Every flower is different, just like the people

you see every day. When I am in my beautiful garden, I feel like a dead leaf among all

the roses around me. I have a hard skin but I can be crushed to little pieces by the

touch of the wrong flower. Some flowers don’t see the beauty of a dead leaf, but as

beautiful as a rose is, the dead leaf is different. It is one of a kind, and it always will

be. I don’t think the dead leaf wants to be a rose anymore. It wants to be himself. For

the better and the worse. The leaf will never think about turning into a flower. It

might be lonely, but I wont follow any other flowers. I will be my own dead leaf.

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