Empty

[Mistress Siana]

Do you know that feeling when whatever you considered as your life so far just seems to break into pieces? A few weeks ago, my boyfriend decided I don't fit in the kind of future he envisions for himself and that it's better to break up now before it hurts too much. But I, for my part, have crossed that point long ago. I love him in a way that I'd die for him without even hesitating for a second, and I've felt this way for a long time. Loving him has changed me a great deal, and the person I am now just can't seem to find her place. All the plans I used to have for my life before I met him don't seem to be mine any longer, they're not even worth the strength it takes to get up in the morning, or just to smile. People keep telling me that what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, but I just don't know whether it kills me or whether it makes me stronger.All I can tell is that I can't go on living like that. I know it's such a trivial matter, so many people have gone through it, but I just feel so empty. It's not only his absence, but what seems like the absence of a future that makes me wanna end it now. Life feels so insignificant now, it's hardly more than just trying to survive the day without even knowing what to survive for. If there's anything I can do to fill the emptiness, or to be me again, please tell me!!
Sorry for being so pathetic

[zledm007]

it's not pathetic, don't worry. now, i don't know how old you are, so if you're older, than words from a 17-year-old might not mean so much, but i'll give it a shot. i think that the only thing you really can do is talk to somebody about it, a best friend, family, or you know what, this forum! somehow, some way, you've got to be able to share how you're feeling so that's it's not all bottled up inside you. as awkward as it may sound, that emptiness, i believe, is really a whole lot of emotion. really something quite different from emtiness, from nothingness. also, it's confusion, not knowing what to do, but this i'm sure you know. the way i figure it, if you can find someone to connect w/, as i said a best friend or a family member, or even this forum, someone you can easily talk with about life and its numerous problems, then however impossible it may seem now, you'll get through it and everything will turn out right in the end. i know it sounds cheesy, but you never know, it just might work.

[Mint]

Well,

You have to heavily rely on your friends at times like this. Don't isolate yourself from everyone - instead call up your friends and try to meet them as much as possible.

Lead active life - make yourself go to the movies, watch your favorite TV shows (or pick up some new once), go shopping.

Its gonna take time to get over this, and stuff that I mentioned above will not make the empty feeling go away - but it will certainly help you "survivng" through this period of time. And remember - it WILL get better, and many people go thought this.